Alone and Together

Two revelations for today.

One: I feel alone, but I am never alone. Two: I need people to be "together" with.

As for the first revelation...I had a bit of a breakdown today. I am a stay-at-home mom, which is such a blessing (especially in this economy) and I would not want to change that for anything. I am starting to realize more and more each day how much work being a mother is. Not so much in the physical tasks (though my back does hurt more than it ever has), but the emotional tasks. When I am not directly taking care of my son, I am taking care of the house or working on school on the computer. When that is done I try to take a shower...maybe have some food other than crackers (or other one handed/no preparation foods).

When my husband is home he tries to take over on the child-care side of things, but that is normally when I have to take a test or fold the laundry. By the time that is done, my son is hungry again, and we sit down to nurse. Most days it seems like a never-ending cycle, which would explain why I can't keep track of what day of the week it is. Even when I have no school work, and the house is clean, and my husband is watching our son...I forget to have "me" time. I am to the point of having to be reminded to have alone time. I think that is one of the reasons I started this blog...to remind myself to have some "me" time.

As for the second revelation: I need people to be "together" with. Though I need "me" time, I also need friend time. I used to get this when I worked; I would go out with the girls after work or go to the theme parks with them (I worked at both Disney and Universal). We don't live near family anymore, so I don't have my mom and dad around (who I am very close with). All of our friends left our town about the same time we did, so even if we did move back, there is no one there. I just need some social time...I don't really need a new best friend or anything, but just some other couples to be social with.

Those are my thoughts for the day...oh, and that I wish my husband didn't like American Idol...three nights a week of taking over the TV is a bit much.